She wondered, “Why?”
She wondered why she felt all alone, even as she was part of a healthy church body and had a great family.
She wondered why, after years of counseling, she still didn’t feel like she fit in. Why she felt “less than”, “spoiled” and “rotten”.
One day she was studying about attachment theory. The idea that a child’s security is founded in how well they attached, and how securely they are attached to their momma or daddy. She read about a child’s insecure attachment and how the child felt weak and alone when momma was out of sight because – well, the child never knew for sure that momma was right around the corner.
And out of the blue – she knew it. She had an insecure attachment with her heavenly Father. As faithful as He had been, she feared that He would not be there the next time around. The He was somehow disappointed in her even though she did her best. In Genesis 1 we are told that God created Man & Woman and found them to be very good. And later we are told that God came to the garden and walked with Adam & Eve. Can you imagine the conversation? Can you imagine God saying to Eve, “You are my creation and I am so glad that I placed you on the earth!” Can you imagine how that might have felt?
Ephesians 2:10 says:
For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them. (ESV)
Since we are his workmanship, it is not unreasonable for us to imagine Him saying to us, “Carolyn (or Holley or Beth or Kathy), you are my creation and I am so glad that I placed you on the earth!” Take some time to meditate on that – to feel it. Be quiet as Your Father speaks love and blessing into your heart and become secure in your relationship with Him.